Life is about making decision. Some of them are quite easy like picking a pair of matching shoes for you daily outfit or fitting a Bag to a pair of Jeans and Burberry boots. But most decisions you will have to make throughout your life are heartbreakingly tough and painful enough to ruin days – even though they are not bad at all.
What do you do when you have had someone you have loved for more than three years now. Someone who told you he would show up to be there for you but did not. Never, when he said he would. It would break your heart. In fact, it tore mine apart and it still is not healing at all. But it is love. Still.
And then, there is the one who accidentally crossed your way and made you fall for him – entirely. The one who is there to hold you when you are on the balcony deeply crying doubting yourself without asking questions but just being there when you fall asleep in the evening and when you wake up in the morning. And you are in love. Newly. Beautifully.
So for whom do you decide in the end? For the one who told you he would give you his all without giving you himself for real or for the one who gets up earlier to prepare breakfast for you – even though he knows you never eat breakfast at all, but thinks its good for you to start your day?
Why do we miss those that actually just hurt us and doubt those that won us over in seconds? Why is there always something left hanging on us like a shadow of yesterdays and yesteryears? And why the hell is it so hard to move on without secretly crying – every single day?